Don't know why, but suddenly there's this urge of wanting to blog again. So ... Time really pass in a glimpse. Here I am turning 18 soon, coping with a different kind life. I took my major exam last year and while waiting for the results, I'm working at Exim Arts. I met new people, make new friends, learnt new things and eventually I knew a new guy. All of them are nice to me and so I enjoyed working there. And as for this new guy, we started of as strangers, then smile-to-each-other friend and then friends, and of courses now we're together. He's totally different from others i know. Being with him just feel so different, and i really love that feeling. But life doesn't seems to be good ... I quit my job after some time. My result is not what I've expected. It's complicated but I've decided to not study at polytechnic, thinking maybe I should l take courses outside instead? My house is like a hotel that I went back for rest every night. I'm currently staying at my boyfriend house with him and his family, not really staying but what I mean is that I go home as and when I feel like it. I don't want to, but I've got no choice. Then my parents are like air ... They exist, but I can't see then. When I'm home they're sleeping, and when I'm awake they're away for work. I'm drifting away from them, as well as my sisters and friends. Infact, I realised that I've got no friends and no family to rely on ... Except for my boyfriend. So I put him in front of everything because he is just too important. But now I feel like everything I did was pointless .. I'm tired, I don't know what am I living for, I don't know what to do and I'm tired of this kind of life .. The only thing that's on my mind is my boyfriend, yes I love him. But sometimes I feel like I'm alone facing the world ... Nobody was there for me when I'm falling.
So here is a collage of photos of me and my boyfriend.
